On the shelf at the cottage we rented this weekend, I happened upon a book by my favorite poet, Mary Oliver.
I am not a poetry buff. I try, but all I enjoy is Jack Prelutsky, Shel Silverstein, and the occasional Def Poet. It shocks me even to be able to say with conviction that I HAVE a favorite poet. The fourth grade poem I memorized was Frost’s Stopping by Woods on a Snowy Evening. The report I did on Emily Dickinson, with all the romance of a solitary life, doesn’t make her poems excite me.
But Mary Oliver speaks to me, much in the way you long for poetry to connect. Her poems are about nature on the surface, but underneath runs a current of passion and an acknowledgement of mortality.
Someone once commented that a person who visits Yosemite will leave a theist. One MUST believe in a greater meaning, a force and order to the universe, having seen the beauty of Half Dome and its surroundings. Oliver’s poetry does the same for me...When my spirit’s weary and full of doubt, her poetry catches an angle of life so accurately that I have faith again.
west wind is a little heavy-handed with death, but in a way that forces the reader to be more aggressive about LIVING. Artists used to do “memento mori” still lifes...with rotting fruit and sand clocks meant to admonish the viewer, “Life is short...”
This is not my favorite, but I left the book for another to read on a foggy morning in the cottage:
Little Summer Poem Touching the Subject of Faith
Every summer
I listen and look
under the sun’s brass and even
into the moonlight, but I can’t hear
anything, I can’t see anything—
not the pale roots digging down, nor the green
stalks muscling up,
nor the leaves
deepening their damp pleats,
nor the tassels making,
nor the shucks, nor the cobs.
And still,
every day,
the leafy fields
grow taller and thicker—
green gowns lofting up in the night,
showered with silk.
And so, every summer,
I fail as a witness, seeing nothing—
I am deaf too
to the tick of the leaves,
the tapping of downwardness from the banyan feet—
all of it
happening
beyond any seeable proof, or hearable hum.
And, therefore, let the immeasurable come.
Let the unknowable touch the buckle of my spine.
Let the wind turn in the trees,
and the mystery hidden in the dirt
swing through the air.
How could I look at anything in this world
and tremble, and grip my hands over my heart?
What should I fear?
One morning
in the leafy green ocean
the honeycomb of the corn’s beautiful body
is sure to be there.
This is not from west wind, but it speaks volumes about her work:
The Journey
One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
kept shouting
their bad advice—
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
“Mend my life!”
each voice cried.
But you didn’t stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations,
though their melancholy
was terrible.
It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones.
But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do—
determined to save
the only life you could save.
No one can hand a poem to another, promising this writer will change her life. You may find Oliver’s words fall flat on your spirit, but for me, rediscovering Oliver on a quiet Saturday morning made that time in the cottage more memorable by far.